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Friday, August 3, 2012

A Metaphorical Illustration...

...for my heart/soul's current state of longing...
 
Longing for love? for the mountains? for freedom? for elation? to feel alive? real? whole? full? 

Yes... but... underneath it all and the answer to all of these current longings is to know God more--to be close to Him. 
 
I've been made to long for Him. 

 
The hills are alive with the sound of music
With songs they have sung for a thousand years
The hills fill my heart with the sound of music
My heart wants to sing every song it hears

My heart wants to beat like the wings of the birds
that rise from the lake to the trees
My heart wants to sigh like a chime that flies
from a church on a breeze
To laugh like a brook when it trips and falls over
stones on its way
To sing through the night like a lark who is learning to pray

I go to the hills when my heart is lonely
I know I will hear what I've heard before

My heart will be blessed with the sound of music
And I'll sing once more
-Oscar Hammerstein II

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Church & Dope On Lawrence Street

Walked out front door. Hit with the smell of pot.

Walked down steps. Turned right. A man. Sitting on the stoop next door.

Thought of Staci's story about the man she saw on our stoop. "We know everybody who knows anybody who lives here and you're not one of them..."

She said it was for coke.

I said, "Good morning," to this man and kept walking. He looked... nervous? bland? numb? blank. not sad, mad.. just blank... not desperate or desolate just... there. Sitting on the stoop.

--I wished I had invited him to church.

I'm a woman, I rationalized. I need to be wise. Street smart. Ugh. So not fair--but what about women like Mother Theresa? and Harriet Beecher Stowe? 

Continued on my way to church.

@ intersection of Russ & Broad...An SUV.

The man inside pulled up and said, "Hey [something about being beautiful] can I give you a ride somewhere?"

I attempted to ignore him and keep walking. But he saw me better and said, "I know you!"

He pulled over.

"No, wait. Come here. I know you."

Assuming maybe he did know me from somewhere... a few possibilities passed through my mind... I  kept my distance but asked, "How do you know me?"

"What's your name?"

I didn't give it.

He thought I was  woman named Kathy. He used to do dope with her on Lawrence.

I told him I've never done dope but that I was on my way to church on Lawrence actually and invited him to join me.

"What church?"

@ the Lyceum. Redeemer Hill Church.

Every Sunday?

Yup.

A woman who looked like she was on her way to the Pentecostal church a few feet away walked by...

I hoped for a second she'd say something.

She didn't.

I excused myself by explaining that I was running late and needed to go...




Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Daydreams

Kelly T was just asking me about my daydreams... the things I pause to smilingly ponder... and for which (at times) I achingly long...

The following are some of them (in no particular order):

1. Performing & ministering around the world with Lights Up
2. Door of Hope Children's Mission (South Africa)
3. Return to Hungary...travel to/around Europe...
5. Leading worship for women's conferences
6. Flirting. Dating. Having fun with, getting to know, laughing with, crying with, falling in love with, and marrying a great God-fearing man
7. Children. A home.

The Insurance Capital of the World - I live here!

I have a new friend!

She just moved in next door with her hubs. They moved up here from Philly. They're from Pakistan. He and his friend just graduated with actuarial masters(?) degrees and got jobs at Travelers. Met those dudes yesterday and I whisked wifey up to Shiloh for a chat when I got home today!! :) :) I love her already.

Never knew this would be my life at 25.
Singer-actress/nanny/office-worker-by-default turned Program Manager/Executive Assistant. Living in Hartford. Working at an insurance agency in suburbia. Studying to take the CT licensing exam for Life and Health insurance agents/producers.
Singing and performing for the Lord and His people...and anyone else who happens to ask. Worshiping and walking with an amazing body of mission and community focused believers!  I knew I'd love city life... but I never would have imagined it to take this shape.  

God, you sure do work things out neat.

My Plan for Jennica at 25: 
Live in/near "the city" - NYC or Boston or DC
Be married to a "sugar daddy" (preferably military coughUSMCcough)
Have a Master's in Opera Performance
Actively auditioning/performing/competing/traveling
Being a light to the music/performance world
Attending a great church

Vs.

God's Plan for Jennica at 25:
Live in Hartford, CT
Single - but surrounded by amazing brothers & sisters in Christ - learning a lot about community and real relationships
Studying for a CT Insurance Provider's License
Actively touring/ministering with Lights Up Productions in Lost In Vegas
Singing on the worship team at RHC
Worshiping and serving with and within a great Christian family

Essentially the same yet divinely different.


Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Pound Cake & Lady Gaga

Tony & JoEllen Stancil (aka "my RHC parents") made my day today in two ways: 1. The most delicious slice of pound cake ever. They went to breakfast at Rein's Deli before coming all the way to Glastonbury to do ME a vehicular favor. They just give and give and give some more. I savored every bite. 2. Let me precede this one by first explaining that Tony is a highly respected professional mechanic dude. (His word must hold some kind of weight). After handing over the keys, I pre-apologized for the state of my sweet little Lady Gaga--not clean. Not clean by a looooong shot. One would think I have lots of messy children and no closet space whatsoever (2nd part is slightly true). Then my wonderful, loving, and merciful church parents taught me one of my favorite lessons ever--one that Tony has put to the test of time and experience: "The messier the car, the prettier the girl" AMEN!!! Praise the Lord!!! HALLELUJAH!!! Jesus saves!!!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

One of the best nights ever...

Just said goodbye to the coolest group of 13-14 year-old Christian men (and their leader, Dave!) that I've ever had the pleasure of hanging with. We spent the entire evening on a full adventure walk through downtown Hartford. They've been spending a lot of time in "the hood" doing service projects, so tonight, I gave them a glimpse into Hartford's other personality.

After dinner chats about what they've been up to/where they're coming from and where I'm coming from, we ate ice cream in the kitchen, and then hopped out the front door to embark on a 2+ hour adventure through some of the sites of downtown. I put on my tour guide/youth group leader/big sister hat as we walked (and acted like more like hooligans as the night went on) around the Capitol, Supreme Court, Bushnell, Bushnell Park...and beyond!

"We were expecting a formal sit down dinner with a black family--and then all of the sudden this white girl comes to the door and we eat sandwiches and fruit salad in her living room!"

We sauntered through the park and up to the wicked old cemetery near the gold building...where they decided to continue hanging out with this girl! (and go late to their evening program)... so we ventured on to Riverside Park (near the bandstand), where (after a short history lesson on Abe Lincoln and H.B. Stowe) the photo-shoot began ... along with the frequent mini-heart attacks ... as they became more and more daring with the wall-walking, and climbing, and anything else they could manage (i.e. loud burps, attempts to spit loogies on the cars below before 'mean-Jennica' gave her ten-teenth, "Really, guys?")

After some water fountain fun (and by water fountain fun, I mean policing the schemes dreamed up by teenage boys who have an "epic" --their words--water fountain in their midst ... just a couple, "Nooope"-s stopped one of them from giving into encouragement to stone-hop in the water fountain), and pepper spray practice (so glad I know how it works now), we began to turn to loop back home ... when one of them said, "Here I am, on a missions trip and I'm having so much fun!"  Voila, blessing and being blessed. =)

As we waited for the walk-signal at the Old State House Plaza ("fully equipped with WiFi," said I, as I spread out my arms like Vanna White--they loved that), the group contemplated/debated jay-walking for the 15th time...and then met a man named Mark outside of Burger King during a potty break pit stop. We chatted, invited him to an upcoming Love Wins event, and Dave bought him a burger.

The boys got increasingly nostalgic on the walk home through Bushnell Park (where I only had to remind them a couple of times that it was technically closed and therefore couldn't loiter--success!) and under the arch/towers thing (super pretty when lit up at night!).

We marveled at beautiful lit up towers/buildings across the dark blue night sky ... AND THEN ... one of them rolled down the hill of the Supreme Court's front lawn.  That was it for me.  If I have any kind of weakness--okay fine, I have two--they are puddle jumping and HILL-ROLLING.  All of the sudden, 25 year old Jennica went away and little girl Jennica was rolling in the freshly cut grass with the boys.  Then 25 year old Jennica and the boys walked dizzily back to Shiloh; where we prayed, exchanged email addresses, and said our sad goodbyes.

"I hope we can have dinner again with you next year." - best quote of the night.

Me too.

Monday, June 18, 2012

On Trying New Things

I LOVE trying new things. Usually, "surprise me" is one of my favorite responses. I'm the girl who will ask the waitress/waiter what to order if I can't decide... And I must say great adventures and new discoveries usually follow. |Proverbs 15:22| HOWEVER, tonight I am experiencing severe disappointment. Yesterday, my adventurous side got the best of me. Tonight, I am dealing with the consequences of a decision that lacked wisdom. Why in the world did I EVER think it was a good idea to decide to try a new brand AND a new flavor of hummus at the same time??!! YUCK-A-DOO!! ... Lemons-lemonade... looking up recipes that use hummus.